I'm trying!

I feel lately that when I am home all day by myself and Lincoln and Lyla are both needing my full attention I get stressed and lose alot of patience. I feel bad for poor Bailee and Bryce because when they get home I am so tired and have zero tolerance for ANYTHING!! But I really ahve been trying to make a contious effort to realize when I am about to burst and talk myself out of it. I have had long talks with my mom about this because she is the same and cant handle too much stress. I have been relying on positive quotes to get me through my days of hecticness. I know that some people may read this and think I have it easy and they would be able to handle it, but i have also realized that all of us have our struggles and trials in different areas in our lives.
As a breastfeeding mom Im sure I can also blame alot on hormones(thats what I tell my self too to get me through the day) haha. I am really trying to enjoy these precious days with my sweet little babies because I have been told more than once by little old ladies that I am gonna wish one day they could be small again. All I can do is try to be the best mom I can and try everyday to be better than the day before. Here is my favorite quote right now in my life....

A philosophy for Life..

Thoughts, keep your thoughts positive

Because your thoughts become your words.

Words, keep your words positive,

because your words become your actions.

Actions, keep your actions positive,

because your actions become your habits.

Habits, keep your habits positive

because your habits become your values.

Values, keep your values positive,

because your values become your DESTINY.

Lincoln does understand

I had a moment with Lincoln tonight that was really awesome! I have been so overwhelmed lately with 2 crying babies practically all day long and it starts to wear on my patience. So lately I have had a very short fuse and when Lincoln wants something and I tell to wait a minute he gets upset and starts to cry and whine which in turn makes me more loud and then we are both frustrated and the rest of the day carries on the same way.

So tonight Mike was at school and I had just made banana bread with the older kids while Lyla screamed her head off and Lincoln just walked around and watched. So after the bread was in the oven I needed to change Lyla and at the same time Lincoln started whining for some more milk, so I calmly made him look at my face and asked him to please stop whinig and told him very sweet that I would change Lyla first and then I would get him his drink and he stopped crying and looked at me and said "ok" and smiled and waited patiently without crying anymore for me to finish. I think from now on I will really try harder to not get so frustrated with him and try to communicate better with him. I think with Lyla being new to the family and him being a middle child I really need to make an effort to be nicer and not yell at him all day. I love that kid so much and I am soooo extremely lucky to have him

3 month photoshoot of Lyla

These are 3 of my favorite pictures of Lyla!! She was soo good during the pictures. for some reason my computer is not letting me post anymore than this so there were a lot more cute pics but for now here is a sneak preview, I love this little girl more than words can say

Lyla is 4 months old

I took Lyla in today for her 4 month check up and she is just so sweet and precious. She weighed 13.3lbs which puts her in the 30th percentile for weight and she was 24 3/4 in which puts her in the 60th percentile for height. So she is definately not following in Lincolns shoes because she is staying tiny, which I love. I try really hard to cherish these sweet times with her because she is our last baby so as hard as it is sometimes to cherish moments when I have 4 kids needing my attention for different things, I am really trying.

Lyla is so fun. she smiles all day long(as long as someone is holding her) and the other kids just love her to pieces. Lincoln has started trying to hold her without us being there to watch him, so I really have to keep and eye on him. I am excited to see her to continue to grow and see her personality even more

Here are a few pictures of our family trip to San Diego last month!! We had soo much fun and the weather was absolutely beautiful!! we went to seaworld and shopped and went to the beach. I will try to post some more pictures tomorrow but for now this is what I could figure out, plus I really have to pick and choose the pictures since we have so many

this is us at sea world

im a crappy blogger!!

I really want to be good at blogging and I have a ton of cute pics to post but every time I try I can never get the caption under the picture or get the picture where I want it. I have serious computer issues, if it doesn't consist of google and surfing the net than I just cant seem to figure it out. Anyone want to come over and help me so I can post picts of our last vacations and my sweet kiddos? Any help would be appreciated, I am so computer-illiterate!!

Here are some recent pictures of Lyla, I will post some more soon from her blessing but she is soo sweet. We just love this sweet baby that came to our family. She still gets up all night long which means she is worse than any of the other kids but I see her sweet face and I cant help to fall more in love with her everyday. She is 2 months old now and I dont know where the time has gone, she will have her 2 month check up next week and i will post all her stats then.

Bryce and Lincoln's well checks

In june Bryce and Lincoln both had well checks. Bryce is 5 this year and he's getting bigger, slowly but surely..haha his stats were: weight 35lbs(10th%) and Height 42 in(25th%) so hes still a pretty little guy but bigger in our eyes. I cant believe my sweet boy will be in Kindergarten all day in about a week and a half. Time flies when your having fun.

Lincoln is by far our biggest kid but he is starting to get picky with food and not eat much so his weight is going down but his head keeps getting bigger. I love his cute big melon!!
his starts were: weight: 26.6lbs(50%) and height 33in(75%) and head was 20 in(off the charts!!)
He is so much fun most of the time, we are having a hard time with him just wimpering ALL day long and it gets really old especially because he cant really tell us what he wants and he doesnt really know what he wants so it gets a little hard to deal with him, but when he is happy he is the funniest little kid. we are so greatful for these two little boys in our family.

Lyla's Birth (finally)

This all started with the post that I said about the contractions all day on saturday and got sent home. Well that was saturday and sunday I woke up and the contractions were about every 20 mins, so they really slowed down, which I was ok with since my doctor told me on friday that he would be out of town until tuesday so I kept telling myself that I could not have this baby until tuesday. So on sunday we went to church and Im still in nursery so I thought if that didnt put me into labor I dont know what would but the contractions stayed the same all day. So monday I woke up that morning feeling good and I was scheduled to do a nst(non stress test) at the hospital so my mom came over to watch the kids so I could do that and then the kids got to finger paint my belly that morning when I got home. The pictures turned out soo cute, Ill have to post those later. Monday mid day contractions started up and were every 6-10 mins so we carried on with our day and went to a bbq since it was memorial day. I woke up at midnight with REAL contractions, these actually were killing my back and I had alot of period type cramps too so I had a feeling this was the real thing. I waited until about 5 am that morning to wake up Mike and said we should probably at least get checked out. I had really fun plans that day so I wanted to either get admitted or be told nothing was happening so I could take my kids to go play at the water park pool. So when we got to the hospital she checked me and I was dialated to 3 and 90% effaced which was 1 centimeter more than saturday. She monitered me for an hour and I got to a 4 so she called the doctor and he made me walk the hospital for an hour and I got to a 5 so the doctor came in and said looks like we are having a baby today. He wanted to really make sure that I was in true labor since I was only 36 weeks. After a couple hours I got to a 6 and he broke my water. My contractions were not regular at all but my back was killing me, Ive never had back labor before so it was a new pain. I got my epidural and felt like I could do this 10times over..haha so when it came time to push the doctor said she was sunny side up, so thats why my back hurt so bad and it took the entire time for her head to come down. We named her Lyla and she weighed 7.3lbs and was 19.5 in. She was absolutely perfect. We could not believe how much hair that girl had and still has it now. we love her so much and feel so blessed that she is ours to keep.

Easter camping

I know this post is so far behind but I actually have the pictures so I decided to talk about our annual Easter campout. we had so much fun, our good friends Savannah and Landon and their # kids went and my mom and dad and sister and her husband. It got pretty warm during the day but it would cool down really good at night.

The one thing that was NOT fun was the sleeping, Mike and me and all 3 kids were in a tent and being huge and pregnant was not a great idea to sleep on a blowup mattress!! plus we heard Lincoln make baby noises ALL night long which kept us very tired with no sleep, also Mike snores soooooo bad and being couped up next to him was not fun. All in all it was a fun weekend.

I had recently got a new camera so some of the flower pictures are me practicing taking close up pics to see what my camera could do. I think they turned out pretty good.

stupid contractions

i thought for sure Lyla was gonna make her entrance yesterday. I started my day off with contractions at about 8am and they were speratic every 5- 15 min for about 5 hours. i had to work so I tried to just ignore then so I could get through my day. In the afternoon they were starting to come more like every 2-5 mins but all day long they never got harder so I again just waited it out. My friend Savannah was over and about the 10 hour mark of contractions said I should probably go in to get checked because they werent stopping. So our husbands stayed home with the kids (they were watching the fight and the game) and savannah took me to the hospital. I thought for sure I was gonna be having her, the day before my dr checked me and I am already 2.5 centimeters dialated and 70% effaced and nope I was not progressing with dialation so they sent me home still having contractions and said good luck come back tomorrow if they get worse. So it was a looonnggg day. but maybe that means my body is practicing really good and it will be soon.

scary fall!!!

I know I havent posted in soo long and I really do have a ton of pictures and post to update on but it overwhelms me when I think about it so for now Ill just explain how crappy my day was yesterday.

It started out great, I was getting Bryce ready for his preschool graduation and needed to run to target for a few quick items. well when I was leaving target I had my purse and bags in my left hand, I was holding Lincoln on my left hip(he is roughly 30 lbs now) and Im 8.5 months pregnant. well, he started to slip off my hip so I tried to jump him back up like everyother time and I completely twisted my ankle and fell to the concrete on the side that I was holding Linc. I can count on one hand how many times I have fallen as an adult and its not fun, but being huge and preggo and holdind a 30 pounder, it was pretty traumatic. My first instinct as a mom was to protect lincoln and not let him hit too hard so I used my whole right side of my body to catch my fall and he started screaming and I started crying of course cuz I am a wimp and it really hurt pretty bad, Im not short so it was a long fall. It happened to be the one day that I chose to wear a skirt, which ended up over my waste at one point in time. Luckily these 2 sweet old men came running over and grabbed my bags and one grabbed Lincoln for me and walked me to my car. I love good samaritans!! I was pretty shooken up and they kept asking me if I was ok and I just kept saying "I think so, I dont know" and at that point it dawned on me that I was pregnant and didnt know what to do. so we got into the car and I called my ob office and started crying again which is totally me because I am not tough at all. They got me in that afternoon and checked me out and they were so sweet to make sure I was doing and feeling ok.
I wasnt too concerned about Lyla because I could definately feel her moving but I felt like I had maybe been leaking so they did an exam and found some fluid, but I had an ultrasound immediatley and everything is perfect as of right now so no worries. She also checked to see if I was dialated and I am 2cm and 50% thinned so that makes me excited that things are getting started. I did scrape my knee up and have a nice purple bruise on my hip and elbow but all in all I am ok, It was just really scary and my body is sooooooo sore today. I feel lucky to have helped lincoln in a way that he didnt get hurt and I didnt land on my stomach so now its just moving on towards having this sweet little girl of ours. I just wanted to document this event so I can remember later which pregnancy it was later in life.

pregnancy so far...

This pregnancy has gone great as far as pregnancy goes. My anxiety is starting to slow down a bit since I can feel the sweet baby moving now. I absolutely LOVE that feeling. I had a little bit of spotting in the beginning but nothing to worry about since so we are chugging along. I had an ultrasound last week and we were able to see that it was a GIRl!! we are soo excited and Bailee couldn't be happier to know she will finally get her little sister. I am soo excited for bows and dresses and little tights and little shiny shoes. Jeans and t shirts do get old after a while...haha but we will be able to dress this little girl of ours so cute, I cant wait. Here is a picture of me at 18.5 weeks preggo, I'm definatley getting bigger, I love pregnant bellies.

New playground

I finally convinced Mike that we needed a playground for our backyard. So now that the weather is nice we went and bought one. The kids love it and play outside all the time now which is pretty nice. Mike said if we ever buy another house than we better find one that already has a playground because he doesnt want to have to put another one together. Here are some pics of him, my dad and Paul helping put it together.

Lincoln turns 1

I cant believe my baby is one. i really don't know where all the time went this past year. It's definately hard with 3 kids but I can finally say I'm getting used to it now. Good thing because pretty soon I will add another sweet baby and things will get crazier. Lincoln has been such a sweet blessing in our lives. After all the heart break and loss that we went through he makes it all seem better somehow. I still wonder what those babies would have been like and what they would look like but I am soo greatful for the sweet family I get to enjoy here on earth.

Lincoln says a few words that are so cute. He says "puppy" when he sees ANY animal, its so cute. He says "outside" all the time and the minute the back door opens and the kids go out he comes out of know where to go outside with them. He says "mommy and daddy" and recently I taught him how to say "please" he doesnt actually say it like we do but I was getting really tired of him screaming everytime we had food so I taught him in a nice voice to say please and now he doesnt hardly scream anymore and actually uses a really soft voice and says please until he gets some food. Every day I enjoy this boy more and more and feel so lucky that we were blessed to have him in our family.

New pictures

A couple of months ago we had my awesome friend Tara Bowman take some family pictures of us and they turned out soo cute. There are so many to show but it would take all day to upload them that I'm just posting a few.

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